To My Angel

Dear Guardian Angel,

Thank you for being so patient with me. I know I have probably caused many inconveniences for you, and for that I apologize. Today, I have been continually thinking about how thankful I am for two very specific times you have helped me in my hour of greatest need.

First, you gave me my son. From an outsiders perspective I am sure many people had their doubts of timing, but for me? You and I both know you saved my life by giving me him. I am sure my Mom in particular questioned what had happened to her daughter, and how it was possible that at 18 years old I was going to be a mother myself. I wish I could help her understand that her firstborn grandson- now the light of her life- not only brings a ray of sunshine to all of our lives, but gave her the chance to get her daughter back. As I see my precious babies growing up so fast, I am deeply sorry for the pain I have caused my parents and hope that the life I have made for myself and my children is one that they can be proud of.

That brings me to the second thing I am extremely struck by today. Thank you for the strength you helped me find. Strength to get my life together and be a healthy mom for first Aidan, and now Lily. Thank you for the strength to survive the last 4 years. I try not to complain about my situation, as it had the potential to be far worse, but I am sure you know what it was to live a day in my world. I am thankful for the strength to recognize how unstable that world was, and for being able to walk away. Thank you for opening doors so I could provide for my children. The support of my loving family and finally. And last, for bringing me to true love. One that has allowed my battered heart to find peace.

For everything you have done, I am thankful.

Me